Unbelieveable...

I am completely flabbergasted that some people can be so heartless and so selfish.  There is one person in my life that could make a huge difference in our journey to have a family and he is opting to not be part of our lives.  Well, that's fine.  We will still go on and have children.  Beautiful, happy children that will never know this person.  Never know the pain they have caused their mommy's heart.  I don't need this person's assistance and no matter what happens we will do this on our own, with our friends and family who love and care for us and are hoping that we get the family we so deserve.

Thank you to everyone who gives their love and support to us on a daily basis.  Without you this journey would be much more difficult than it already is.

Great appointment yesterday!

So I went yesterday for my baseline/suppresion check.  Everything looks great!  They rechecked may antral follicle count - which was previously 36...it's now 66!  I could be a great responder!  I can only hope that no matter how many they get there are a lot of mature eggs and they fertilize!

Also did my injection class (most of which I knew, but there are a couple new meds so I am glad I did it).  Jodi, the IVF nurse, was very helpful.  We signed all of our consent forms and made payment for all of the madness!

 

It's go time!  I stop my BCP on Monday evening.  Then I should get a period.  My next appointment is 11/2 at 8am and I start my Follistim that evening.  That's only one week from today!!!  I can't believe this is happening so fast but I am hoping for a wonderful Christmas miracle.

 

Keep praying and keeping us in your thoughts and prayers.  You all know how much this woud mean to us to have our dreams come true!

Special Delivery!

Well it all came!  I thought it would look worse because I have seen some crazy IVF med deliveries.  But since I am not on a Lupron protocol it's not as bad so I'm not horribly intimidated...

3 more days

Well it's only 3 more days until we head back to Dr. Murray's office to sign all of our forms, make our huge payment and do a suppression check I believe.  This is just to make sure the weeks of birth control pills actually put my ovaries to sleep so when we start the injections they will be all like...

 

I can only hope that this works the first time.  The cost is just astronomical. 

 

So the hope is that everything looks fine and I can stop the birth control a couple days later and then start my injections on 11/2.  My medication should be arriving tomorrow so there will be a picture of all of that after I get it unpacked and sorted out.  Not even sure when I am taking all of the miscellaneous medication but they will let me know!  :)

October 15th

Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. 

I am having my Mom light a candle at 7pm in memory of Tobin & Miles since I will be at bowling.  (Yes, I bowl on a league with Todd.)

I would encourage all of you to light a candle for all those babies lost and to let the light shine for as long as possible.

That's about it.

I got my medication ordered today and I will receive it on 10/23.  I'll make sure I take a nice picture of everything and post it so you can see what I'm about to subject myself to.  What I am receiving is not everything.  I may have to order more medication depending on how the cycle turns out.  But this will get me started!

A Slight Relief!

So I called the pharmacy today to get final pricing on my medication and to put in the order...it is going to be less than I thought...here is how it breaks down...

Ganirelix - 4 vials - $103.50 per vial = $414.00 plus $100 coupon given to me by Jodi = $314.00
Follistim - 300IU cartridge $254.00 and (2) 600IU cartridges $508.00 each = $1,016.00 plus $300 coupon given to me by Jodi = $716.00
Menopur - 4 vials - $78.00 per vial plus $10 program enrollment fee or additional discount $322.00
It will be either Pregnyl for a trigger $59.90 or a Lupron compund $178.00 depending on if I am at risk for OHSS (Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome).  I will order that last minute.
Endometrin - 28 "tablets" (this is my progesterone) - $74.43 with insurance
Medrol - 4 tablets - $6.00 with insurance
Vivelle - 4 patches (this is estrogen) - $10.71 with insurance
Doxycycline - #8 - $1.57 with insurance
Valium - #2 - $0.44 with insurance
Tylenol with Codeine - #10 - $2.28 with insurance

I may need more medication depending on how my cycle plays out...but it looks like right now cost of medication will be under $2,000 which is less than what I thought it would be!!! 

Still have to get ready to give them $10,262 on October 25th though...YIKES!!

I'm giving you all the numbers of what it costs us so you will all know how unfair it is for women to struggle with fertility and then get penalized by their insurance and have to pay out of pocket in order to have a family they so desperately want...it's no fair at all and it's us who have to pay the price...

Last appointment before beginning...

So I had one more blood draw today - to check my thyroid...so hopefully no more bruised arms to speak of...

Trial transfer went great - everything looks wonderful.  My case was approved by the IVF committee at the university so I have the green light.  I'm so thrilled.  So far all the labs have come back good, so hopefully nothing will pop up unexpectedly.

Now I am pricing out my meds.  My IVF coordinator has a few coupons which will save me about $400.  I'm thinking I should be able to pay less than $2,500 for all my meds.  Which is a HUGE relief.  I was anticipating it being much more.

So for now I am keeping up with my weight loss goals and my acupuncture, and I go back in 3 weeks for my baseline and to sign all the consent forms which Todd and I have to go over.  (What do we do if we have frozen embryos and one of us dies, or both of us die, or we get divorced...do we dispose, donate science, etc...)

Lots of things to do to get ready but now most of them are done.  Pretty soon it's just going to be a lot of needles...  I'm scared and excited at the same time.

Thanks for all of the thoughts.  Support is so important through this process and I think we have a wonderful support system.

Bloodwork is DONE!

So I had to go to a seperate lab today to complete the rest of my  mandatory bloodwork.  I needed my A1C drawn and had to go to an outside lab.  Todd was off to my doctor today to give his blood for his necessary bloodwork.

Tomorrow I will be at the doctor's office to do a fluid contrast ultrasound and a trial transfer which is basically like doing the real thing but with no embryos.  This procedure won't be done in the office when the time comes.  Everything is done over an hour away at the University of Colorado hospital in Aurora.  That's the only bummer, but it's a small distance to go for a baby.  We've gone this far what's a little drive in the car!!